#I love Tinashe’s music and I especially had it on repeat in 2021… so this is the dream collab of 2021 me x 2022-current me

[pocima]

My two worlds colliding

[lasirenedesiree]

I feel like I’ve lost and found myself so many times, I wanna go through a timeline of all of my aesthetics..

2014: being myself, liking girly pop music and watched shows like pretty little liars, was feminine, and shy.

2015: grew into myself more, was more confident, was really into street style and hip-hop culture, took inspiration from Fergie and liked a lot of rappers like YG and Big Sean.

2016: I really got into old school 90s rap and alternative rap, I liked the psychedelics aesthetic, some old school rock as well, I feel like I lost myself here and was following the crowd when it came to my interests, I stopped being delicate and tried to be tough, also wanted to be rebellious .

2017: was a complete opposite of the prior year, I was more chill personality wise, I had a gypsy and bohemian aesthetic, I listened to reggae nonstop especially Bob Marley, but mood wise I was super sad.

2018: was a mess, I was totally disconnected from myself and didn’t realize it, my music taste wasn’t mine, my aesthetics were copied and not what genuinely felt good to me, wasn’t a good time.

2019: the year I really started reconnecting to myself, I began listening to the music I did in 2014 like Gwen Stefani and was connecting to my feminine side again, I liked girly things, I liked the diva aesthetic and also the soft girl aesthetic.

2020: I deeply fell in love with old Hollywood glamour, all the girls like Rita Hayworth, Marilyn Monroe, Audrey Hepburn, Gene Tierney, Sophia Loren, and more; I would just binge watch these films and listen to vintage music, I started doing my makeup and hair vintage inspired, I learned about Dita Von Tease and fell in love with the glamour and the luxurious aesthetic, it was also a very hot pink inspired time and I listened to Sade on repeat.

2021: I was still in my vintage phase but it turned to being more inspired by vintage Europe because it felt more free spirited than American films did, I listened to a lot of Dalida and was really inspired by the femme fatale archetype in films, as a result became obsessed with jazz music especially Amy Winehouse, I partied a lot at a friends house and was always there, I started really exploring with cosmetics, was my super artsy experimental phase, color palette turned to baby pink, but mostly wore black.

2022: was my year of healing and on a mindful journey towards self discovery and authenticity, I felt lost again and wanted to find myself, began to be more modern aesthetic wise.

2023: I really began finding myself and took all the parts from each of my phases and combined them all in one, I don’t have to choose but instead accept all of these different parts of myself, I feel like I’ve really become me again, the Croatian girl who is artsy and so much more.

Current times (early 2024): I love the feminine aesthetic like the dollette and have so many parts that I love like the soft girl aesthetic, the clean girl aesthetic, bohemian, witch, mermaid, siren, sea nymph, Adriatic Sea, Balkan girl, vintage aesthetic, old Hollywood glamour, femme fatale, assassin, Mediterranean girl, coconut girl, Hawaii girl, princess, gypsy, angel aesthetic, and so much more; I realized I don’t have to choose one but all of these parts are represented in me.

2024: editing this to update, I am currently super into the futuristic aesthetic after watching The 100 series as well as rewatching Terra Nova. I’ve been listening to a lot of Tinashe, other r&b soul and hiphop singers as well as dance and pop. Style is cute, comfy, and simple. I love the celestial and cosmic aesthetic. Feeling more connected and integrated with nature. I am so focused on my studies as well.

This was fun to analyze and process, sending love out there <3

[bugsongs]

tagged by @hazel-rah to share 5 albums i liked in 2021 💕

1. MONTERO by lil nas x - of COURSE of course i let this album repeat for many days straight before i even thought about listening to anything else. this album has everything: bangers, sad songs, sad bangers,

fave track: tales of dominica

2. 333 by tinashe - i love tinashe and i love this album!! she always has such a unique energy i feel like, and i just love her sound. wish i had more interesting thoughts but i dont know how to describe it she just brings the vibes idk what to tell u

fave track: small reminders

3. coping mechanisms by tayla parx - i listened to basically all of her discography a lot this year, but this album in particular. there's a mini music video film thing of songs from this album on youtube that i let play a lot when i was bored at work, and i especially love the visuals for the song residue.

fave track: dance alone

4. future me hate me by the beths - this is probably a perpetual most listened album bc i have it in my car and i listen to it pretty frequently, but it really doesn't get old to me. its self deprecating and at times pessimistic but upbeat, so it makes it more cathartic than depressing for me.

fave track: not running

5. donut county ost by daniel koestner - okay yes i listen to video game music but donut county is one of my fave games to play and just hang out and relax with, and i really like the ost so i listen to it a lot to relax with as well.

fave track: apology (bonus)

tagging @zaatanna @clitorous @violaeade @craniuum and anyone else who wants to do this!